Here I Stand

Simul justus et pecator - Simultaneously saint and sinner.

Pay no attention to the stream of consciousness pacing in the corner...

Posted On: September 01st, 2006 at 9:50 pm

Besides the fact I've been cutting back on coffee and still maintaining a decent level of a sane outward appearance, I've been doing pretty good the past few weeks. I feel I should write a blog post now, to fill in the blanks before I write another. Yes, that was obvious. Bear with me.

I'm getting comfortable with the fact that I'm a senior now, only one more year of high school and I can break free of that joint and actually start learning. I walked through the halls today, finding my locker, and wondering...maybe it truly was disturbing if I felt the school had become my second home, complete with taxpayer-funded evolutionists for science teachers.

On a really happy note, the more I work at the vet clinic, the more secure I am in my goal of being a veterinarian. I yearn for the day that I can walk in a room, have a decent conversation with the client about actual medical matters, give a shot, sound smart, and walk out without having to mop up afterwards.

Of course, I know it's not that easy. I'm joking, mostly.

Not having a lot of time on the computer, I've borrowed minutes here and there trying to sort out the psyche that is MouthHouse. I've come to the conclusion that it is a much more complicated beast than I eariler anticipated. I probably won't be able to figure it out, not even close. I admire Stan and Pastor B for taking so much time to think it out. There's no "True solution" at all. It's...almost that simple. Mouthhouse is like a country full of a certain group of people, and then years later, having another group of people move in unsuspectingly with green cards and temporary Visas - oh wait, never mind. Wrong comparision.

Anyway, I feel as though Higher Things as a whole will never be ripped apart, regardless of what happens internally, or even externally. We're too close for that. Our sixth sense that allows the MouthHouse kids to find each other in conferences, regardless of thousands in a crowd, will probably never let us cease from adapting to new situations. Change has been happening for a long time, and like a bacterial skin infection, the end result is what seems huge, while problems have always existed. (Okay, ignore the horrific analogy there.) This may sound incredibly liberal of me, but perhaps change is good.

If you're completely confused now, that's great. We can be completely confused together. :-)

I just thank God all the time for the wonderful friends I have through Higher Things. It's like a support group, Misunderstood Lutheran Confessional Teens Anonymous! Or not! But close, right....? Maybe? No? You still with me?

I'm suddenly craving sleep, like a pregnant woman craves pickles with ice cream.

Why not.

Goodnight, everyone.

Comments:

Re: Pay no attention to the stream of consciousness pacing in the corner...

Posted On: September 03rd, 2006 at 10:18 pm by Anna Joy
I think MH has changed so much over the years that it isn't really the MH I knew when I was on it back 6 years ago. The community has changed it's focus.

Don't worry about HT being ripped away. You'll still have conferences, forums, the website, Reflections, and all the other wonderful things HT gives to us through the pastors and caring parents.

Also, don't be too depressed about MH yet. I think it'll still work out. You just need to find the three moms, which is a lot easier than people might think. Just send an email to ML to see what they tell ya. The hardest part might be cutting down the email volume, but I'm sure if you guys use your heads to decide what you will and won't reply to, or even what makes a worthy reply or topic, things will work out just fine. I'll even betcha you might like MH more because of the lesser amount of clutter. Blogger Smiley

Re: Pay no attention to the stream of consciousness pacing in the corner...

Posted On: September 04th, 2006 at 3:30 pm by Ethan
MouthHouse won't die. Even in the time I've been on (both active and inactive) I've noticed it tends to evolve rapidly... This will just be one more stage in its evolution (if you'll pardon the metaphor ;-)). HT is the greatest youth organization in existence, and MH is the best e-mail list I've come across... yeah... Cheer up, take heart, and... ignore the dull weather outside.... Blogger Smiley

Re: Pay no attention to the stream of consciousness pacing in the corner...

Posted On: September 04th, 2006 at 7:52 pm by Rachel Engebretson
Thanks, guys.

I'm not so sure I want MH to stay open, anyway, but I'll watch from a distance and see what happens.

If it's gone, it's gone. :-)

It's kind of a good thing, it just makes MHers extra-special, a dying breed, you know, like the DoDo bird. Only not. :-P

Re: Pay no attention to the stream of consciousness pacing in the corner...

Posted On: September 04th, 2006 at 8:37 pm by Ethan
Are you saying I'm a dodo? :-P

And why would you not want MH to stay open?

Re: Pay no attention to the stream of consciousness pacing in the corner...

Posted On: September 04th, 2006 at 8:46 pm by Rachel Engebretson

Are you saying I'm a dodo? :-P

And why would you not want MH to stay open?

If, being an MHer, you were a dodo, then I'm one too. Blogger Smiley

If MH is causing too many problems, or some members are not being respectful, than it doesn't need to stay open.

Re: Pay no attention to the stream of consciousness pacing in the corner...

Posted On: September 06th, 2006 at 12:05 pm by Ethan

Are you saying I'm a dodo? :-P

And why would you not want MH to stay open?

If, being an MHer, you were a dodo, then I'm one too.

Well alright then. :-D

If MH is causing too many problems, or some members are not being respectful, than it doesn't need to stay open.

Yeah, you're probably right... It will stay open though, there are too many people and who are too stubborn to let it die..........