Saturday after Ash Wednesday

Daily Lectionary: Genesis 3:1-24; Mark 2:1-17

"He shall call upon Me, and I will answer him; I will deliver him and honor him. With long life I will satisfy him, and show him My salvation." (Psalm 91:15-16 from the Introit for Lent 1)

In the Name of Jesus. Amen. Save me, Jesus. Rescue me from what I have done. Help me to change. I want so much to stop the evil I'm doing. I try. I really try. I fail so much. I am sorry. I really am.

If I were really sorry, I'd stop, right? I mean, I should get hold of what I'm doing and stop doing it. I just don't know what to do any more.

I'm so hurt. I'm so alone. I'm so lost without You, Lord. Other people around me have all their stuff together. They seem so good. I look at myself and I see only the awful things that I do and keep doing.

Help me to repent, Lord. I can't fix this. Only You can forgive my sins. Only You can make what I have done better.

Forgive me. Have mercy on me. Absolve me. Save me! Raise me out of my sins. Give me new life.

Lord, if you kept a record of my sins, I'd be done. I'm finished--literally. If You hold any of my sins against me, I'm lost.

Keep Your promises to me, God! Take Jesus' faithfulness and count it as mine. Count Jesus' suffering and death for what I deserve. Jesus has to be my righteousness. Jesus has to be my forgiveness. He has to be my justification. He just has to. You said so. You promised.

In Holy Baptism, You saved me. No matter what else is true of me, You have saved me. You are saving me. You will save me from my sins. You will save me from myself. In the water and Your Name, I am saved.

Only You can help me be better. Only You can keep me in the Faith. Only You can conquer my sins. Repent me today from ever thinking otherwise. Today, I'm giving up trying to save myself and trusting Jesus alone.

Save me, Jesus. Rescue me from what I have done. Help me to change. I want so much to stop what I'm doing that's evil. I try. I really try. I fail so much. I am sorry. I really am. In the Name + of Jesus. Amen.

"He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will abide in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say to the Lord, 'My refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.'" (Psalm 91:1-2) 


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